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Holding on and letting go
These last few months have been very interesting. I’ve been working hard to recover from long covid, even though things have continually been going up and down and I’m hardly a step further than I was mere months ago. I am, however, extremely thankful that I’ve managed to remain mentally stable throughout this ordeal, though it continues to be challenging. Respiratory issues are the pain of my existence nowadays, especially with the heat of the last few weeks. Meanwhile, I have gotten a little better at doing nothing and just sitting with my thoughts. Which has given me time to reflect, to start letting go of the past and focus…
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My hopes and dreams for 2023
Well, what a year it has been. A year of life lessons; of novelty, changes, sadness and happiness. One big mess, but eye opening nonetheless. For the first time in three years I can actually say that it wasn’t that bad. Even if I don’t have much to show for it (in my mind). And even if I initially struggled to accept it for what it was and eventually became. It’s funny, compared to 2020 and 2021, it would’ve been much easier to go out and travel. And yet, I only went to France for two weeks and somehow I’m okay with that. At the beginning of the year, I…
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Moving forward
“The future is uncertain, which is scary. But not as scary as not being true to myself.” I wrote down that sentence as I was trying to gain some perspective on the past few years. I’m at a point in life where neither others nor myself expected me to be right now; I’m 21, yet I do not have a high school diploma. Neither am I at uni, nor do I have a fulltime job and all I want to do is scream my head off, as the outside pressure is building within me. Had you asked me five years ago where I’d be right now, I’d either have said…
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Light and dark
2020, a rollercoaster of emotions. I don’t quite know how to put it. This year has been very challenging; I was forced to postpone any and all hiking plans, at first due to the pandemic and later due to an unfortunate knee injury. I found it difficult to navigate through each day and it pushed me right back into the darkness. But most heartbreakingly: I lost a friend. My heart goes out to anyone who has lost a loved one, especially during these trying times. Needless to say, like so many others, I can’t wait for 2020 to end. This year has definitely made me reevaluate my priorities. I realise…
